The following was written
Apr 5, 2014 5:35pm
I sit here in my bed with so many thoughts running through my head. Where do I start, how did I get here again? I can't even answer my own questions. I think to myself, haven't we done this already?? Haven't we gotten past this??? Well there is this sneaky little thing called, "secondary cancers" and if you're wondering what that is, when you fight your first cancer, you use whatever means to fight and win and beat the s.o.b. but you run the risk of setting yourself up for a another cancer. That's what we did, we fought the good fight. I voluntarily went into the vault and I danced with Chernobyl because I had no choice. If I didn't dance with Chernobyl (radiation) this cancer was going to come back in my lungs and my. I was 28, celebrating my second wedding anniversary and loving on my beautiful baby boy. I put on my dancing shoes and I danced.
Today, I'm up against thyroid cancer.I have had thyroid problems before my cancer and after the radiation, it completely shut down. The radiation spilled into the thyroid and it shut down. I have been seeing an endocrinologist ever since. You can live without your thyroid and you can take medications that will do the some thing and be almost 100%. Nothing is as good as the real thing. Five years ago, my doctor had an ultra-sound done of my thyroid and we knew nodules had started to form. Too small to do anything but watch them. In January, I went to my doctor and he ordered another ultra-sound. The thyroid now has become my secondary cancer. I have tumors growing on my thyroid. One in particular is rather large. The doctor didn't even want to biopsy it. He looked over the amount of radiation I had been exposed to and thought that poking the belly of the beast wasn't in my best interest.
I go in for surgery next Friday, April 11th. It's a 4 hour procedure with two doctors. They are going to take out my whole entire thyroid and any nodes that look suspicious near by and obviously the tumor. This is all very close to my vocal chords, so they have to be really careful. I will be in the hospital for about 5 days, and I won't be able to talk for 2-3 days.
We do not know which cancer it is, it's one of two possibilities. As for treatments it depends on which of the two cancers it is. At worst it would be radioactive capsules known as R-131 and I would go into isolation for a week. I can't get near anyone.
I share are this with you all because you are my friends and I can't have this conversation with you individually because I really can't and don't want to talk about it. I will keep you updated.
The great news, I am going to live. It's just another little something something that we have to deal with and get through. I am mad and sad all wrapped up into one. Please keep my family in your prayers. I worry more about how my mother and my children are going to take this than I worry about me.
The one thing that really really frosts my flakes is the budding singing career that I was starting will never happen now.......and let's not even talk about my lucrative career with my 900 number. My voice will never be the same again after friday.
Love to you all and NO SADNESS!!!
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